Live Wire

 I just stare into nowhere,

There's no interest left

In anything around me,

Within me. Only silence.

Dissatisfaction.

Always wanting more.

I would attach myself

To a live-wire to feel.

Nights and days

Leave me numb.

Never before to be sober

Was so hard. To be high

Was so dull. To be drunk

Was so sick (and normal).

I wish I could know where

It all goes, where it all leads.

But I don't want to know

Where will it all end.

Something tells me

That knowing the answer

Wouldn't make me

Feel any better.

I need a spark and light,

And open windows

To let the fog go out.

Too long I've been

Living in an aquarium

Only with electric light.

A.K.